My Moon Makes Me Feel Like a Fraud, How About You?

The moon is our emotional nature. It’s what makes us tick and how reactive (or not) we are. Obviously, short of being a sociopath, its impossible to go through life without feeling emotion. And obviously, again, writing is highly emotional. Not only in the sense that we impart emotions onto our characters, but also our attachment to these characters. Not to mention, all the emotions that happen before the writing process, during the writing process, and after the writing process.

I feel like I’ve written about this often, but I know this is a daily reality for most people. Particularly people in creative fields. Our minds get the best of us. And, women are more prone to depression and Imposter Syndrome. How lucky for me. I struggle with both, the latter in particular. It was one of the reasons I went months without writing. All through writing Ascendent, it boggled my mind when people told me that they liked it; because it didn’t seem possible that it could be true. It’s published, and it still seems like it can’t possibly be true.

I know most of these posts end up making me sound like I’m a school guidance counselor from a 90’s teen rom-com (For the record, I’m twenty-four. So, I think that makes me too young?), so I’m going to skip the platitudes this week. But, I like to think even one person could find this and it could break through the horrible headspace our asshole brains love to put us in long enough to realize that you’re not alone. Because we all need support, someone who listens to us. Really listens. I was born with my support system and I like to think it makes me more aware of its importance. I can’t imagine I would be sitting here typing this without her.

I know this was kind of (or majorly) depressing (I think it has something to do with the seemingly neverending teenagers who od. I think if they had just one person who is caring, compassionate, and listens it could prevent so much.), but thank you for reading anyway and tell me what you think in the comments. Bye (an exclamation mark seems inappropriate here, am I the only one?)

To find where your Moon is, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about your Moon here.

Venus is Less Superficial than You Would Think

Venus is a benefic planet that rules over the two most sought-after things in life – love, and money. If you want to get technical, money and love since the second house is our possessions and what we value, while the seventh house is our relationships. Romantic ones, not platonic ones. Friendship is the eleventh house.

But, back to what we value. Depending on the aspects made to Venus and its placement within your birth chart, as well as the sign and potential planets in the second house, what we value can be construed as a nice way of saying someone is materialistic. Say that to a Taurus and learn the hard way why Taurus’s symbol is a bull. But I digress. Venus and the signs it rules (Taurus and Libra) are some of the few placements that give us an appreciation for the arts, the other being Neptune and Pisces. Personally, I find Venus more useful; it doesn’t cover everything in a rose-colored fog the way Neptune does.

My third house is in Libra, which is Gemini’s house and whose ruling planet is Mercury, and it gave me a love of words and reading. I had no idea it would transition into writing, it was something I had never considered I could do or that I would love. When I’m not doubting myself at least. My point in all of this? Use your Venus to find what you love, even if you think its something you won’t be good at or people will mock you for. By the way, fuck those people. Anyone who’s shitty to someone for going after what they want is just envious of the courage they wish they had, which is an unacknowledged, universal truth in my opinion.

Anyway, thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

To find which sign and house your Venus is in, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about your Venus here and here.

Look What Uranus Made Me Do

Uranus, named after the Greek God of the sky Ouranus (which means, yes, people have been making your anus jokes longer than they were ever funny), is one of the more confusing planets in a natal chart. To me, at least. Even just looking at the bare facts of the planet doesn’t make any sense. Uranus is a water planet and is the modern ruler of Aquarius, an air sign. See what I mean? It switches back and forth and disrupts whatever house it’s in. Mine sits in my sixth house, the house of menial, everyday drudgery and it sucks.

Uranus, along with Jupiter and Neptune, is what makes it impossible for me to sit down and get my work done.  Seeing as it conjuncts my Sun, it is considered a creative, but rebellious, aspect. All this manages to do is make me crazy in tightly controlled environments. Which is another reason I hated school. That, and the constant bullying.  So, how to put a lazy Uranus to work? Between this, Sun in the fifth house, Jupiter in an air sign, and a Taurus Midheaven, I’m lazy. No, seriously, I’m asking. I just don’t have the answer today.

I suppose it’s the same answer I, and every other person, always give. Work past it and put it to use. I swear that’s what all of these posts have boiled down to. All of the aspects in my chart make me lazy and artistic, woe to me.

I’ll just stop typing now.

 

As always, thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments.

To find out where your Uranus is, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about Uranus here.

My Love/Hate Relationship with Neptune

Because it’s not just Jupiter that fucks my shit up. To give you some context, Pisces, which is ruled by Neptune, was originally ruled by Jupiter. And, in some ways, Neptune and Jupiter are one in the same. While Jupiter makes you so focused on the big picture you miss the details, Neptune gives you rose colored glasses so you end up missing everything. Which isn’t necessarily all bad. That rose colored fog is associated with creativity. Every artist, writer, and musician have Neptune to thank. Of course, every member of the 27 club probably has a poorly aspected Neptune to thank for their membership.

But, anyway. Putting your Neptune to work when you write is the easy part, getting it to back off so you can do all the other parts that come with publishing a book is quite another. As it is, I had to step away while writing this and instead of getting back to work like Saturn would, I dicked around for an hour. Because that’s what Neptune does.

So, how to work against it? I’ve found the Pomodoro Technique to be effective on days where I actually want to get things done. On days when I don’t want to do anything? I try anyway. I know it’s trite and I know it can suck, but working past whatever it is that’s preventing you from doing what you want to do (and I should emphasize what YOU want to do, not what anyone else wants you to do) is better for you emotionally than not. Trust me, I speak from experiecnce.

Once again, thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

To find out where your Neptune is, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about Neptune here.

Harnessing Your Pluto as a Writer

Pluto, the keeper of all things hidden, indicates the darkest part of ourselves in a birth chart. The most painful parts. The parts we all wish didn’t exist. When you write, you, as a person not as a writer, inevitably seep into it. How you wish you were, how you wish you weren’t. All parts of you become exposed.

I know it sounds terrifying. But, personally, I strive to use that. Those parts of ourselves are what makes for a compelling read. A character we love, a character we hate. One we see ourselves in and one we want to shake for making a multitude of bad decisions. I believe this all comes from our Pluto. But, that might be my generation’s Pluto in Scorpio talking. Like all water signs, there’s a mystical bent to a Scorpio’s thinking; just with much darker undercurrents.

And, yes, Scorpio is known as the sex sign. But, sex for them is not for the pure enjoyment of it like Leo, or the physical connectivity like Taurus. For Scorpio, it’s the deep, dark emotional connectivity they crave.  Again, use that. Not necessarily in the context of sex, although it obviously extends to that as well, more in the context of the emotional connectivity. With all water signs that desire for emotional connection exists, but with Scorpio you don’t forget about it when it happens. That’s the experience you want to give your readers.

To find out more about Pluto, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about Pluto here.

Thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

My Love/Hate Relationship with Jupiter

Jupiter, Jupiter, Jupiter. The planet of expansion, religion, and higher learning. Its placement can even be an indication of becoming a writer, as it is for me. (In Libra in the third house). And, as luck would have it for me, it’s also the planet of extreme laziness.  Expansive thought and I just don’t feel like doing anything with it today, maybe tomorrow.

I must admit though, Jupiter is a bit of a mystery to me. Even when I was researching it for this post, I still couldn’t pinpoint exactly what it was I wanted to say. Nebulous, indeterminable, and full of hot air describes the Jupiter experience. Frustrating would be the succinct answer.

Even then, I can’t fully hate it for two reasons. The first the previously mentioned aspect for writers. I finally got past the ‘I don’t feel like doing anything’ feeling to actually finish my first book. The second, the third house is the house of siblings, combine that with relationship focused Libra and expansive Jupiter and you have the incredibly close relationship I have with my sister. Our dynamic inspired the dynamic of Sabine and Fig. And, I know for a fact, that the story would be missing something without that sisterly bond. This rambled a bit, but that might be my Mercury in Sagittarius (coincidentally ruled by Jupiter).

Anyway, thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

To find out where your Jupiter is, get your birth chart here. You will need to know the exact time and place you were born.

Learn more about Jupiter here.

Finding Your Inspiration

Warning: This post is like to be rife with clichés!

The archetype of the tortured artist exists for a reason because it seems that one can’t exist without the other. So, trust me when I say, it’s highly unlikely the torture your own mind puts you through while writing – or painting, or creating music, or whatever artistic endeavor you fancy – that the experience is singular to you. I will allow that it feels like it is though.

What are you to do when your blank computer screen stares at you, I’m using an example I am more than familiar with, and all the words you’ve written a steaming pile of crap? As tempting as it is to delete every trace of your manuscript’s existence and throw your computer out the window, don’t. As tempting as it is to walk away from it and never touch it again, don’t. And this is coming from someone who took months, yes that’s plural, long breaks in between writing a single chapter. Because when I say finding your inspiration I mean it in the motivational way, not the plot bunny way.

You have to find what will inspire you to say “Fuck this, I’m getting this shit done.” You have to find what will inspire you to just sit the fuck down and write. For me, it was because I needed to know that I could do it. That I could actually make and keep the commitment to sit the fuck down and write every day. To be honest, I’m still kind of surprised I did. If you’ll allow me one more cliché, you learn about yourself in the process. You learn that you can do something you thought you couldn’t. You learn that even though you think your writing is god awful, other people don’t. Even people who aren’t related to you! You also learn that your brain is kind of an asshole. More than kind of. Way more.

I know that this doesn’t add anything new to the conversation, it’s actually got flies on it. But, I like to think I’m not the only one who has read articles dispensing one size fits all advice on this topic and rolled my eyes at them; wishing they would at least be more realistic about the frustration this causes. Oh well, c’est la vie. (I had to get one more cliché in.) As always, thank you for reading my ramblings and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

Getting Writer’s Block (Because You Inevitably Will)

Writer’s block is as much a part of the writing process as self-doubt. (Which I’ll be talking about next). I’m not here to give you my opinion on why you have it or how easy it should be to get past it. I’m sure you get enough of that from people who aren’t writers. Which will leave anyone feeling like this:

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And this:

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I’m here simply to pass on the means to get past writer’s block that was given to me by my writing teacher. Have your characters ask why they are where they are and why they are doing what they’re doing. I do this interview style on a new document, but it does work. For Ascendent I had my main character, Sabine, talk to my other characters. This helped me get past my weeks’ long writer’s block and fleshed out some plot points. Though, that might have happened because I don’t plan.

Anyway, it’s simple, but it works. As long as you don’t forget. Seriously, I lost weeks until I remembered my professor telling us about this. Thanks for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

The Pros and Cons of Not Planning Your Book

Planning your book. That is the most obvious and, purportedly, the most important first step when you sit down and write a novel. I respectfully and wholeheartedly disagree, though I think JK Rowling can say it better: “I wrote the Hermione/Ron relationship as a form of wish fulfillment. That’s how it was conceived, really. For reasons that have very little to do with literature and far more to do with me clinging to the plot as I first imagined it, Hermione ended up with Ron.”

This is exactly why I am averse to planning. You get attached to an idea you had or a character you created and have to write around it, even if it no longer makes sense for the story you are telling. Maybe this is just my experience and my opinion, but I feel that the characters who live in my mind and tell me their stories need to lead them. It feels more organic to me and lends me a better sense of who these characters are and who they will become; as opposed to me being the god – like figure who directs their every thought, word, and actions. Even having a general idea of the plot points I need to hit benefits from not planning. In Ascendent, I got to the important plot points in a way I didn’t expect and never would have in the first place if I had sat down and methodically planned every last bit of it.

That’s not to say that an absence of forethought doesn’t come without challenges. Writer’s block (which I think I’ll talk about next) was a prevalent part of my writing experience. There’s something to be said about knowing how to get from one thing to the next, instead of sitting at your computer for hours willing the people in your head to talk. And, when that inevitably doesn’t work, resisting the urge to throw your laptop out the window. Looking over this, I realize this all makes me sound mildly crazy; but I think it’s because Neptune conjuncts my Sun.

Anyway, I’m not trying to say my process is the best way for everyone; but it is the best way for me. If you need to have a million pages documenting the most minute details of the world and characters you created to keep you sane while writing, then you do that. If you need to be downright lackadaisical, then you do that. And if, like me, you need to be somewhere in between, then you do that. You just need to write (which is another topic for another day). As always, thank you for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

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Top 5 Songs That Inspired Ascendent Part 2

Here’s part two of my top 5 songs, this time for my deuteragonist Elias.

5.) Moon Song by Anthony Green

Same as Work Song, this perfectly illustrates Elias at the beginning of the book.

 

4.) Noticed by MUTEMATH

This is, admittedly, slightly ridiculous; but so is being in love for the first time.

 

3.) Foreigner’s God by Hozier

Just as Sabine has a difficult relationship with her mother, Elias has an equally difficult one with his father.

 

2.) Remain Nameless by Florence + The Machine

This is for one of those moments where it’s meaningful to just be there for someone.

 

1.) To Be Alone by Hozier

I know, another Hozier song. But, if I had to pick just one song, it would be a three-way tie between this one, Foreigner’s God, and Moon Song. It’s a heady feeling to be seen as the person you are.

 

Thank you for reading and let me know what you think in the comments. Bye!

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